I will tell him about a Phoenix.

It is strange how we have been taught about the “stepping stones to success” thing. When it is actually far from reality. Very far. In our real, non-magical lives, there comes a point when we have been through so many lows that we forget how it feels to experience a high!

Yes, I have been having a rough patch lately. Maybe that’s why this pessimism. But actually, it isn’t about the pessimistic thoughts, it is the real ones! I feel. We tend to dream a lot, and in all that we forget to keep a check on reality. Trust me, give it a check occasionally. Every now and then.  So that you are sure that you are not losing it.

We all have dreams, and we know we have the capability to achieve them. But what when those dreams break? Theoretically, we have to gather ourselves up and move forward. Try again perhaps. But is it really so easy? I’m afraid not.
Dreams break. And for a moment you don’t know what to do next. As a loved one felt, you are blank. There is that inability to think for a while. That initial state of shock and acute disappointment. And the fear of facing everyone...You let down your close ones, obviously.

I know how terrible it feels to have the lows for quite sometime; Hoping against hope that tomorrow will be better. But every day brings the same disappointment. Almost the same.

But then we’ve read about those great philosophies of how “the darkest hour is only sixty minutes” and how “good things take time”. All these thoughts (the positive ones) keep driving me. And needless to say, the support of a few loved ones too.
But what happens when your supporters break? That is one big mess. Trust me! Because now you have to forget your miseries and be there for them. Role reversal. Difficult.

Just like I had one a few months back, he had a tough day today. Calling it tough may be an understatement though. A four year long dream broke. It sucks, doesn’t it? I’m trying to be there for him. But man! He was so much better in this role. Way better. I don’t know how he managed to handle me back then. Uhh! He is good. Anyway I obviously know that he won’t be okay overnight (though I hope he is) but I want his smile back. It is precious for me. And yeah, I will do everything possible to get that back.

I will tell him about a Phoenix maybe. How it is a long living bird, which rises from the ashes. We may be down in the gutters right now, but tables turn and things change. And all this hard work that we have put in will never go waste (another thing I have been taught). So our time will also come. When we’ll rise and shine, above all this. It may take time …but we’ll get there. Eventually.

Things may look unclear right now but there is that voice inside that I hear which doesn’t let me give up. Oh wait! Maybe it is his voice …because he is the most optimistic guy I know. And I won’t let that change. J